2012: the new Annus Horribilis?

My life is not just End of the World. But for that, My life is more on the horrible moment what I saw just like this:

My darkest secret to shock for is "My beauty is a sin," my meaning is getting mad for Me to reveal early relationship (when I was 14, grade school days) because of Henry "Kuya Manok" Sumagaysay and I wish Him to MUST die after ruin me my youngest goal into early relationship that I damning for, and thank you Mr. Joseph (Boyles) to vulgarize my dark issue and SHUT THE F*** UP!
My worst year in college is too having a BITTER, because I blame myself to missed or unsuccessfully attempt to finished college this year (not just DUE to my remaining back subject classes) that I cry for after blaming my (younger) brother's high school friend's 18th birthday (3 years ago) as a being a "Gold Digger" of her mother (f***in')  mom and, CONGRATULATIONS  for being mistaken Identity.

College is NOT over to me or going to Hell after my unsuccessful attempt to quitting college and this is my last year that I cry for, also. If not, my dreams is into pending (until now) but, I'm thankful for my family and friends to I inspire for on NOT quitting college after graduation day.
...And lastly, I'm too silly about to worrying the love-triangle relationship between Carlos (Jurao) and Renie (Oldelmo). Why Renie who blaming me (about 5 years ago) of flirting her ex-boyfriend, Carlos without her unknown reason that's why, Joseph (Boyles) who asset me to catch-off those silly womanizer. After 5 years, I've just waiting a justice [for Me] to say "sorry" to me but it's pending until now, that's why Camille (Paz) who said to me (on Her behalf): "Please, forgive me my best friend and I say sorry to you on behalf of Her (Renie), and most of all you're pretty and Carlos (Jurao) who like you after the co-incident." 
I thankful to Her to pay-respect for, but for Renie is NOT! BAD ASS TEACHER! 

to Joseph Boyles:
"After the third party issue, I never saw you AGAIN! Please forgive these f***ing a**hole that too shame me. You NEVER enter to school again and I will NOT signing your clearance of you! F*** YOU!"

P.S.
"You're sooo insecure! I'm NOT your close friend!

... I wish you to kill you via tsunami from Japan!"

 My lesson of my story is more on trials, more on decision and NOT too disappoint yourself, but for me, it's NOT end of the world for forcing Me against the nature of shock.